Sometimes I feel like I really suck as a Mom. (Very positive way to start my post, right?)
In my defense, though, there are SOOOOOO many expectations one may feel they have to meet during this whole motherhood journey and it gets overwhelming at times.
For example:
-Don't let your child watch more than 2 hrs of television per day.
-Teach them to pray, be kind to others, and recognize Jesus.
-Teach them to share, say "please" and "thank you", and respect all adults.
-Teach them the alphabet, numbers, shapes, and colors....and don't forget the fun songs and rhymes.
-Spend time reading to them, talking to them, playing play-doh and painting with them. Cultivate their imaginations and their individuality.
-Don't yell at them because they are REALLY quick to imitate all your behavior--so if you yell, they will too. (I know this first-hand...and I wish to high-heaven that I wasn't a yeller).
-Ignore them when they are throwing a tantrum.....no, take them out of the place where they are throwing the tantrum.....no, try to talk to them and settle them down.....the possibilities are endless really. You always hear the phrase "it just depends on the child"
-Biting is bad, Hitting is bad, Not sharing is bad....teach them all of these things, and make sure you teach them well because they need to socialize afterall.
-Mean what you say when you say it at ALL times, cause if you don't they will take advantage of that.
-Make sure they brush and floss and know how important it is to wash hands after potty too.
OH.MY.WORD!!!!!!!!! I had no idea. NO IDEA!!! Because the list above is only a tiny portion of all the responsibilities involved.
Kids get older. They get fizzier. And you look at them sometimes and think "where did my sweet baby go?"
I guess you could say that I have hit a rough patch with parenting. It's a big old patch that I am trying to navigate with patience and resilience.
And most of all LOVE.

In church last Sunday a sweet grandma remarked how she wished she would not have taken herself so serious as a younger mother. She wished she would have enjoyed it more. That resonated with me in such a piercing way.
How can I make sure I am enjoying all of these moments....even though there are times when I feel like poking forks into my eyes?
Words can do no justice in describing how much I love being a Mom. I feel so incredibly lucky to have two, healthy, happy kids. They bring me so much joy.
I just don't want to ruin them.
I want to teach them all the good things....and have them forget all the moments where I really suck.
It's hard being an imperfect person hoping to raise perfect children. (I didn't come up with that line-I read it on a different blog but found it to be true to how I am feeling at present).
The truth of the matter is: I have in my daughter a little version of me. And I have to look that in the face, and take it on every single day. And I am not easy. I never was. Add some Kris Powell to that mix and we've got a force to be reckoned with.
And that is why my Mom had to give me pastel mini marshmallows whenever I made good choices.
I rarely got them. But I always felt loved and that's what I always remember. My Mom loved me.
I am just incredibly grateful that we can start every single day fresh, with no mistakes. That line is from Anne of Green Gables.....man, I wish I could come up with something original.





As long as she's democrat and I keep trying to do better I think we'll be okay.......( :