I really should hop in the shower.

But I just can't bring myself to do it.

It's snowing today. My sister and her kids and MY MOM are on vacation in Hawaii. 

OF COURSE I am happy for them.....I just wish they were all here with us in the icy-cold of Spokane. 

This post is going to be random, spotty, here and there, it might not make sense.  I've decided to just type what comes to mind.

Dutch is crawling. His knees are always red. He is pretty pleased with himself.

I have recently taken an interest in the art of LETTERPRESS. Yesterday I decided to myself, "I am going to start researching LETTERPRESS, so I can buy one and make my own notecards, stationary, invites, etc."....I went straight to GOOGLE in hopes of making my dream a reality.

Then I got overwhelmed and decided to have Kris do all the research for me. Then I felt depressed because I really want to LOVE something SO MUCH that I become really good at it and can feel pride in my ability to do something other than change a bum and put in pigtails. 

And then it took all of about ten minutes for me to feel excited and inspired by LETTERPRESS straight to, "ehhh, maybe Kris can look into it for me...i need to go put the whites in the washer and sweep the kitchen floor."

I want to know how some MOMS can do it all. Clean house. Prepare dinner. Care for kids. Take time to nuture passions and hobbies. Read books. Run errands. Pay Bills. Run their own businesses and/or have jobs. 

My goal each day? HOP IN THE SHOWER. My sights are obviously set about a mile below the bar.

I think sometimes I just want something that is mine. Something I do that I can do on my own and get good at on my own. I want to make things that are lovely. But I haven't the time. 

And then I think of this quote I saw a while back.

You just have to DO the damn thing!!! Sorry for the curse, but it makes me SO irritated at myself. 

Speaking of me. I am going to do ISAGENIX. The nutritional cleanse. I have been going back and forth about it for MONTHS and MONTHS. But I decided recently that I am going to start in February.

I have actually been listening to podcasts every night and really psyching myself out about it. I even ordered this to put by my bed.

I saw this on a friends blog and LOVED it.

I lack confidence in my ability to NOT eat junkfood, thus the need to try and psych myself up for this nutritional cleanse. 

My lack of confidence mixed with my lack of motivation for exercising is what has kept me from doing it. Plus, its kind of expensive and I want to make sure if we're spending the money that I am 100% committed to seeing it through.

Anyway.....this has turned into babbling. But sometimes I just have to babble to the blog.

Also, I have actually been sticking to my new years goal to read the BofM. I have that. I should be happy that I have that.

Sennah is SO obsessed with SpongeBob and its not cute anymore.  Everything is Squidward this and Mr.Krabs that.....and Sandy, and Gary...and "Mom who is your favorite on Spongebob?"....to which she replies before I even get a chance to speak, "My favorite is Patrick, but I like Spongebob too, and I like Sandy cause she's a girl and can I watch Spongebob Mom?"

At times I feel like I might highly dislike Spongebob.

Something positive now......Sennah has started sharing a lot more with Dutch. She is taking him under her really possessive wing and showing him all sorts of attention and its sweet.  

Kris is GREAT. As always. He will be cleansing with me....a sort of support system, I suppose. 

Wish us luck. Seriously. We need it. 

Dutch got a haircut last Sunday. I kinda love it even though, to me, he looks like such a big boy now. Which kind of makes me feel sad and long-ey for the new baby days again. Love his dopey little right ear (he got that from me--sennah gets my crooked pinkies and dutch, my dopey ear....these kids hit the gene-pool jackpot, wouldn't you say?)

My kids look alike. This picture certainly proves that point.

Sennah continues with her mildly OCD tendencies. She is consistent, if nothing else.

She took this picture of Dutch and I love it.

And to end this incredibly boring rant....I leave you with a quote I wish I had come up with I found on the blog of a friend. It is so true.

We just gotta keep walking--hopefully we have some really cute galoshes though.

 

 

Comments

[Britt]

I LOVED talking to you today. I really miss you Ty. It's crazy talking to you on the other side of the country and having the same feelings as I'm having at this moment. I know something that is just you that you are super good at and should be really proud of... you are a WAY good listener and you always make me super happy when I talk to you. May be cheesy for me to say but it's true. You really are the best friend a girl could ask for. Love you. Let's talk again soon.

[Andrea]

Haha! You crack me up, and that Senna, what a character! I know what you mean about wanting to have it together, but the older I get the more I think it's mostly our perceptions that make others look like super mom, and us like we aren't accomplishing much. Give yourself credit, I think you're doing a great job!

[Megan Dunford]

I love all your goals and I love reading your posts even when you think they are kind of babbly. I wish we lived closer to you guys too. We would have so much fun. First we'd make pie and then learn how to letterpress (I love letterpress) and then do Isagenix (because of all the pie we ate). My Mom has done Isagenix and she really thought it worked great! So I hope it does the same for you. You will do great! I love all your cute quotes too. You are just the best. :)